Choosing to start a family, there were plenty of obstacles that Kyler and I foresaw in getting pregnant. Having Hashimotos- a thyroid condition effecting hormones- I expected that like most hashimotos women I would struggle with getting pregnant and have a string of miscarriages before successfully birthing a child.
What I did not expect, was for us to get pregnant our first month of trying. Sharing our exciting news with close friends and family, I at times felt like a complete fraud- fearing that this little child would be lost within weeks or months due to my disease.
As weeks passed, I felt more and more at ease, trusting that this little one was going to make it and that I was IN FACT going to be a mother. At 16 weeks we found out that we were having a BOY! Knowing his gender, and choosing a name made the reality soak in even more. I felt so connected to this child of God growing within me. I began living in the truth that I was going to be a mom, and began to prepare.
“I began living in the truth that I was going to be a mom”
Little did I know what awaited us around the corner. Exactly one month later Kyler and I went in for our 20 week ultrasound scan to check the baby’s vitals. We excitedly told the ultrasound technician that we were having a boy and had chosen to name him Brody. As she scanned his kidneys, spine, brain, and length, she paused at his heart.
“We excitedly told the ultrasound technician that we were having a boy, and had chosen to name him Brody”
The technician spent another 10 minutes going over his little heart over and over again. Without a word, she exited the room, bringing with her another technician. This woman also went over his heart, eventually leaving the room to make a phone call. Within minutes, we were sent home without a word of explanation.
Pulling into our garage, I received a phone call from the OB’s office. This call changed everything. The woman on the other end told me, “After looking over your ultrasound results, I wanted to inform you that your son is 99% perfect, however he has a heart condition known as Transposition of the Great Vessels (TGA) and is going to need open-heart surgery shortly after birth…” I was stunned, then enraged- 99% perfect?! How could she say that? He wasn’t missing his pinky toe, he had a major flaw with his heart!
“your son is 99% perfect, however…”
Shocked, heart broken, and confused I sat Kyler down and told him the diagnosis. I explained that Brody’s major heart vessels- the ones that pump blood in from the body and out to the lungs- were in the wrong location and that he would not be able to pump blood correctly or breathe without having open heart surgery. We sat there and cried in disbelief. Holding one another, we began to pray.
We prayed in faith that God created this child, that he intimately wove Brody together in my womb, and that He would be able to heal his heart. We prayed in surrender, handing Brody over to God, placing him in God’s ultimate care and provision. We prayed that God would work in miraculous ways to create in Brody a fighting spirit that would transcend into a man who will live a surrendered life to God and fight for hearts- the hearts of those who do not know God.
“Create in Brody a fighting spirit that would transcend into a man who will live a surrendered life to God and fight for hearts- the hearts of those who do not know God.
We know that this journey is going to be a difficult one, but what we know with even more certainty is that God is in control, and that His glory will be shown through this circumstance.
Thank you for partnering with us in this unknown season of life, we are grateful to have you alongside to watch first-hand what God does.